Monday, January 21, 2008

Worship retreat on Friday and Saturday was great. Pastor Philip Huan was, as expected, good with his teaching, i guess partly because he has the experience of being in the worship team before. I really learnt quite a bit about the role of the worship team through the Levites, although there wasn't a lot of mention about dancers and how they can play a part. Still, it was definitely a learning experience. I think what struck me the most was how special the Levites actually were. I have read about the Levites before through a dance book that Aunty Patsy loaned to me and i knew they were specially chosen by God, but it never occured to me the extent of the importance of the Levites.

Apart from the teaching, the games were fun. Uncle Tat Jin's friend was hired to help run the thing, and i have to say, he is good at what he is doing. Not only did he use the games for bonding, but he also used them to link to the worship ministry, having been in it before. So he illustrated a few good points while we played. I really liked the blindfolded one, where he put Aunty Yeep on 'mc', to illustrate the fact that the leader may not always be around to guide the team. I think that's real great. All in all, it was a fun time.

The one thing about this 'camp' that really helped me was to find release, for those of you who know what i'm talking about. I never really wanted to tell anyone, and i still feel like hiding in the ground for suddenly blurting such stuff. What i must say is thank you, because the messages didn't just help me continue dancing, but they erased a lot of the negitivity that surrounded me. The other moment of releasing was during worship on Friday night, i actually cried quite badly, if anybody noticed the amount of tissue i used. Heh heh. So yup, thanks for the encouragement, written and said to me after i spilled everything. It's still going to be an uphill battle though for most part i've 'recovered', and i hope that no one apart from those in the room will know about this.

So my prayer at the moment is that I will overcome this problem. I know it's the work of the devil, and I know that God will help get me through this!
Oh Lord, keep my eyes trained on You, so that i will see what is good and holy. Please help me to recognise the encouragement and positive feedback i receive, and learn to accept them. But don't let me be proud because of them Lord. In Jesus' name, Amen

10:21 PM
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Tuesday, January 15, 2008

It's just the beginning of the year and already i feel the busyness of it. I s'pose compared to later in the year though, i better be thankful for whatever free time i have now, since i'll be busy with the A levels. So far, i'm pretty satisfied with the new teachers my class have gotten. They have been really good so far, and they are strict, so it helps the class to work. I think God knew we needed them, that's why there's so many changes. =)

The class is also smaller now, though only slightly, and while i miss those who are not here, there's a slightly more cosy feeling. Maybe it's just me, but i certainly like it. Of course though, the cliques stay pretty much the same, roughly.

Recently though, I haven't been able to go for dance and band or arrange a math tuition session with MengHwee. Gah! I pray hard that I still will be church-ing on Saturdays, for these 3 things. It should be a lot easier though, when we move to tampines. (which is soon! yay!) I have a feeling that later in year i might have to drop out of something though, since i also have Agape teaching to deal with. Oh Lord keep me strong!

Oh yes, and on Sun i shared about the difficulty of comtroling my spending on food. Well, this week, I've already gone over budget on Monday. =S It's going to be a long climb up the mountain of financial discipline. I'll really need God's help with this too! Plus i wanna shop for new year clothes. Haha. I've been hit by the shopping bug again. Anybody want to join me? Hee.
Still, i should be able to tithe what i want to this month.

Anyway, it's getting late and i want my sleep. I'll try to post pictures sometime soon, since a certain somebody is demanding for it. Hah. G'night!

11:05 PM
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Tuesday, January 01, 2008

Happy New Year to all you little people out there! OH man, I can't believe it's really 2008, A levels is coming soon! What a scary thought =S And i'm only 2 years away from being 20~! O.O An even scarier thought. Woah man, time passes by REALLY fast. Well, i thank God for His presence and providence for the past year. I never expected it to be such a time of growing, of learning. But i know that this year, more pruning will also take place.

My prayer for this year is His strength, since this year will be a busy year. Aside from A levels, i'm teaching in Agape, training in Dance ministry which is part of the worship team, going to teach keyboard to youthies and cont with the band. It aleady feels quite busy to me, but i know that i haven't got the worst of it. There are others who will be busier than i can ever be. I also pray for the relationships that will be formed, and altered in this year. I hope i won't cause too many old friendships to fade, as new ones are made.

In fact, i sense that things will change quite drastically for me, as if there's going to be a lot of 'new'. New house, new relationships, new responsibilities, new discoveries, new lessons, new new new. Though i'm sure most of the old will still be retained, most of it, i hope. and that i will hold on to God and not let go. After all, there are two things in life that's constant: change and God. So as change takes place, God will bring me through it.

I also pray that this year will really bring me closer to God. Not just because of exams, but because i'll need Him more than ever. So yeah, i'd like an opportunity to grow closer and to get to know God better. This year has to be really God-centred alright (not that other years don't need to be) since i can easily lose sight of Him through all the 'busyness'.

Discipline is another area that i hope to improve. Looks like it's gotta be less of the computer for me =( BUT! it's for my own good! discipline to study for As, and study God's word, among other things that i've yet to think of.
and Direction in my life as i decide what to do for uni, what course to take and what my future may hold.

SO, all this i put into God's hands, and trust in His plan.
In Jesus' name, Amen.

5:16 PM
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